Diary+Entry+2+- October+6,+1939



Today I saw what I shouldn't have seen, death. My family is a military family, so there was a film which was taken in camps about Japanese camps to capture the Koreans. My mother was looking at those films, I was so shocked. There were Koreans forced in the camps, running into soldiers and brutally dying. They were in bad condition, REALLY bad condition. They couldn’t even walk, people in my age were even on the film, I really couldn’t watch the film shots. It was horrible.

There were also a book made about the war. It was like film, it was talking about the Ma Ru Ta. It was about the body experiment that Japanese did with live Koreans. They also talked about our country developing new weapons, airplanes and human bombs. I learnt another thing, that there are no rules in war, everybody was killing each other even if it meant killing young boys, just like me with toxic materials, just like gas bombs.

I just couldn’t believe that our family is contributing so much into this brutal war.

As I was getting scared, the war of Changsha in China was over. I was so happy that I might be able to see my dad for once. However he said that he is preparing for other battles. These days I felt more insecure because what I saw on film and what I read in the book. I am worried that those incidents might happen in our country since the Soviet Union started being more aggressive with Japan because of Roko bridge incident.

Since it was getting more dangerous, and Japan was going into a war deeper and deeper my father ordered __Fuji Yamaguchi__ to protect me. I actually liked him, he told me about when he was in the war of Nanking. How Japan is falling in to battle.

I learnt about the battles of Changsha, that it was a hard fight. Even if Japan used any type of war, China was not going down and there was a treaty signed for World War II that our “great” invasions such as gas bombs were not allowed to use. He also told me about battle of Nan King 1937, it was the time when my father attacked Roke Bridge. It was in ShangHai, Nan King. He told me that battle of Nanking was not what I thought it was. I thought that the battle of Nanking was a battle of victory and glory, winning over the Chinese who went against Japan. It was a Massacre. Killing more than a 4 million people. We used chemical bombs and gases and also fire to kill people. It was so scary. I really don’t want to talk about it. I started feeling that Japan was the worst country in the battle. We kill and we experiment people. Koreans and Chinese are the ones who are innocent not the ones that are going against us. I really feel so confused and scared.

Even if I was scared I had my supporter who was sent by my father. He taught me everything, he even taught me how to fight and be a man. He often reminded me of my father who was strong. Without my father I think Mr Fuji is my 2nd father of mind. He gave me a knife as a mark of close relationship.